The First Thing I Remember
by Chazz Azz
You are the first thing I remember, now that I think back.
I can't remember everything perfectly clear
but I do remember you are the first thing that protected me.
You know I wish I had the perfect words but I don't.
I do know I always wanted to be around you,
I wanted to know you. I wanted to talk to you.
So much of the time I never got to see you.
I really never knew why but you were always gone.
When I would least expect it, you would be there.
Different than before, yet always stronger.
You know I regret not showing you more often,
how much it meant to me to have you around.
I know it sounds strange, but I got so used to having you around,
I didn't know you were there.
I guess being busy with life and the things life brings,
must have got in the way.
26 years have passed since that day when you left.
I sit here talking to you, once again. It's just like it was yesterday.
I remember too too well and I'm sorry for taking so long to write you,
but I want you to know I do realize how lucky I was to have you in my life.
You see the truth is, you were my guardian angel
and you protected me many, many times.
At this point in my life, there's so many things to remember,
so many things to forgive and forget.
As much as I would like to find the right words, I know I can't.
I'm just trying to say I miss you so very much.
I only wish that in life, I could have realized what was going to happen.
My dear brother I never told you because I didn't expect it.
I never realized how much I loved you until you were gone.
God knows I would give my hands to have 5 minutes with you again.
Thank you again my brother. Thank you Gene.
In loving memory of my brother Gene. 1985
Chazz Azz 5/25/2012
by Chazz Azz
You are the first thing I remember, now that I think back.
I can't remember everything perfectly clear
but I do remember you are the first thing that protected me.
You know I wish I had the perfect words but I don't.
I do know I always wanted to be around you,
I wanted to know you. I wanted to talk to you.
So much of the time I never got to see you.
I really never knew why but you were always gone.
When I would least expect it, you would be there.
Different than before, yet always stronger.
You know I regret not showing you more often,
how much it meant to me to have you around.
I know it sounds strange, but I got so used to having you around,
I didn't know you were there.
I guess being busy with life and the things life brings,
must have got in the way.
26 years have passed since that day when you left.
I sit here talking to you, once again. It's just like it was yesterday.
I remember too too well and I'm sorry for taking so long to write you,
but I want you to know I do realize how lucky I was to have you in my life.
You see the truth is, you were my guardian angel
and you protected me many, many times.
At this point in my life, there's so many things to remember,
so many things to forgive and forget.
As much as I would like to find the right words, I know I can't.
I'm just trying to say I miss you so very much.
I only wish that in life, I could have realized what was going to happen.
My dear brother I never told you because I didn't expect it.
I never realized how much I loved you until you were gone.
God knows I would give my hands to have 5 minutes with you again.
Thank you again my brother. Thank you Gene.
In loving memory of my brother Gene. 1985
Chazz Azz 5/25/2012