by Chazz Azz
I got out of bed this morning Lisa, about an hour or so ago.
I went to take the trash out Lisa and looked at the
spot I stood upon the first time I heard your voice.
I just stood frozen Lisa and unable to pull myself away from
remembering what I felt inside the moment it all seem to happen.
I came inside finally to warm up Lisa and frankly
I can't focus on anything but you.
So as I sit here and think of you Lisa,
I wipe the tears and try to find something to give you of quality.
What you're doing is still important to me Lisa.
Who you're doing it with is really something I try not to include. because
you have my heart and strangers can injure me.
I sit and think about my life Lisa as the regular people see me and my other life,
that whole other world the regular people hide from or do not talk about.
At this point you're hard to see Lisa but I have clear sight of you from yesterday.
I have no dishonor for you. I would be ashamed if you didn't know how I love you.
Jesus I wish I didn't Lisa but I do. So if love is a giving thing then I say to myself,
"what can I give or say that is from my heart to love you?"
I will tell you what I feel at this moment to hold on to and try to see it with an open mind.
For today Lisa? This moment? Right now? I want you to know that
I pray when your journey is over and you come back from the web.
I hope you are someone you recognize not for my sake Lisa but for ?
I pray this prayer for myself .
copyright Chazz Azz @ HCBF 11/18/2012